wake up early in the morning,we went to west coast park in the morning ard 10 plus for mac breakfast.i know i know..i diet .so i didnt eat alot. =) e weather was so hot lors.after eating e breakfast,we went to play for awhile...e sand was fucking hot!!! hotter than e sun i think.but it didnt stop us lahs.play!! weiyi was damn idiot when they climb finish e pyramid,coming down,he is e fastest bcos he has long legs!haahs! he went to take one of mei slippers lahs.mei was screaming bcos e sand is fucking hot lors.weiyi took already and keep running lah.we play for awhile.cannot tahan already.is so damn hot.be it e sun or e sand.we stop and go back.we sweat like hell.but i guess and i know we are happy to spent one sunday morning like this. =) went back.wanted to play mj.bro say he dun want play.jiaqi coming.idiot lahs.waited for so long.she came at 4 plus i think.den we play until 7 plus.i never win at all until bei feng,finally i win once!!! for bloody 2 hours plus..i only win once!! i think mei nv win lahs.big winner is weiyi n jiaqi. =( lucky we didnt play $$ on that day. =) i want to go drink!!!!!!

actually i dun need your concern and care at all.you shldnt have come in e first place.stop asking ani and nap about me.pls.they dunno much.if you really want to know.just come in front of me and ask.dun do things behind my back.doctors so what.do you know doctors actually save people lives and at e same time they KILL.! i wil nv respect doc wit e fucking eye living on top of their bloody head! you!yes!is you! i have no idea how you get to know my blog.aniway,you know why and what im saying like this.so just go away.go to those ladies who wow!at e doctors. =) i just treat doctors like shit and especially you.thanks!

i have went to take up my driving lessons.BTT wil be on like june 26.ade sweets ask me to view their web and see whether got earlier date for e test or not.but i guess i wont be changing lahs.i still think june is still e best time for me.so i wont be that rush. =)

blogging now is so sians.no wonder my brother and his gf has not been updating since like dunno when lors.anyway,i enjoy my days passing like des..working time,der is always some people making me happy and laugh.i love them.and at home will be my family acting stupid and talking rubbish when they are doing nothing..just like my sis and dad.sigh.rubbish,and farting. =) i just love them des ways..mother day is coming soon.i believe alot of people will come and ask ay when mother day arh.?haahs.is MAY 11 pls people.we are going to eat.i treat.haahs.going to my father and mother fav restaurant.and i have already make e reservation since april i guess or end of march lahs.my family is like this.we treasure e time where we can get to spend with each other.so normally des kind of occasions is always our fav. =) i haven been meeting up with my darlings.soon ladies. =) and im also waiting for my laopo cola to come back from malaysia.so we can go drink.im 'jiu gui' and so is she. =) meeting wif one of my darling gera like someday next day i guess.going mirama hotel to get some nice and shiny little stones for our nails.and we might be going for medicure too.we are always like this when two of us hit together lahs.ha.! anyway karen dar cal me today.she ask me some questions and asking me to resuce her.haahs.whatever it is,she is just too KIND. =) i will want to see her soon after im done with all my things..i have been like getting busier each and everyday. and i like it.! =)

i have been so lazy to come n blog lors.everything has been ok.is so better for me now..i seem to have go back to my usual life style..smiling and talking rubbish again.haahs!anyway,diet and work is all in my mind. =) thanks for leaving me,my life and my heart so that i can find someone better than you soo much which i have already does. =)

afew cm away wil be a car knockin me down.why not? few seconds i wil be in heaven.why not.

birthday could also be death anniversary.

i thought this year my birthday i wont be happy and even think about it.today i went see doc.my weight drop.lose 6kg in 3 wks.ha!great! tiny little things make me feel happy and nice for the whole night.i hope it continues....

today we are all supposed to the temple to pray to my grandparents.i didnt go.not bcos im lazy or what.is just that im not prepared to smile happily in front of all my relatives.they will ask me this and that.i know they are concern but im just not in the state to tell them exactly what is happening again and again.im in a slightly depression period.no medicine for me coz doc say is a slight and she dun believe that medicine that control a person mind,her thinking and her heart.got to recover it all by myself.im trying so hard to.wearing a fake smile everyday to work.is so fake that i just want to stop.but if i stop,the people will ask me again.am i ok.?i wunt be mad at them cos they are all concern abt me and worry.is just that it will be so irrating that i decided to wear a fake smile on my face everyday.at least they think im ok.and at least i dunt have to explain again and again.i cant control all my negativies thinking.it just come into my brain suddenly and stay there for few days or few hours.how i wish they wunt enter my brain animore and easily.but i cant seem to control everything.life has been very worst for me.i dun like to talk to people animore,not even my family members,and my frens.i dun have much frens.we were all working and is so hard for us to meet up.excuses here and there.im tired.i believe they are all tired.some of them are happily with their loves one.i dun even feel like calling them to disturb them.busy busy busy.work work work.in the end.im still alone.alone.alone.alone.how is wish i can just sleep all the way without waking up.the world is not beautiful animore.they are black and white.