went bugis today ALONE! haahs.i enjoy shop alone.. oh no.. my cousin must have spread this disease to me..haahs.last time i dun even dare to go eat alone no need to say shop alone..but i love shop alone!!!!!of cos with $$ lahs.haahs.okks.today my boss say want come than never come..the thousand is with me..wtf! wanted to go OCBC back to cash in for her..in the end,rain! suddenly rain! okks.i cant get out so i stay in junction and shop..espirt SALE!!!!!topshop SALE!!!!!wah lao!!!i went espirt 1st den i see topshop also sale lors.espirt almost spend me 300bucks.fuck!after that went to buy watches.GUESS-240bucks!poor.going to drink water for the rest of the days.. =( went to find celine to do my nails.. okks.i reach her place ard 645.do half way,her customer cal.want come..celine ask her come ard 915 to 930..in the end,she came 830!! idiot!! somemore she want do express mani..okks lahs..celine ask my whether can i wait for awhile while she go and do her first..cos is express mani!! so in the end okks lors..celine do her first,but is already 9.mine haven started on the 3D yet..so tml den continue lors.. at least it doesnt look bad now..haahs.1st time do nails like that..do half way,tml continue! must get discount!!! tired tired tired!!!

beautifully stated...
as we grow up,we learn that even the one person that wasnt supposed to ever let you down probably will.
you will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
you will break hearts too,so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
you will fight with your best friend.
you will blame a new love for things an old one did.
you will cry because time is passing too fast,and you will eventually lose someone you love.
so take too many pictures,laugh too much,and love like you have never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spent upset is a minute of happiness you will never get back.

i was wondering how people everyday go update their blog post.got soo many things to write mehs..haahs.i cannot everyday post.if i did,im not normal.i miss e days in kimage,99 and QB. where we all had no problems,everyday play and play and play.sitting down at 99 drinking ice-lemon tea everyday,smoke while we talk rubbish and we can sit from morning till evening.shiok!haahs.sigh..can time reverse back..!!!!!

i tried calling my kor on sat and sun.he didnt pick up nor return call.msg also e same..i start getting worried..bcos he has never ever did this kind of things before.my dad went drinking with his frens on sat night..came home drunk and fall down..but lucky!! nothing happened..only his backside blueblack.heng sia! suddenly a thinkin strike me. kor didnt reply my msg and calls is it also he drunk and fall down and admitted into hospital..? bcos he went drinking with his frens on fri night.. i was so fucking worried lahs.. and than! ytd he call me but i was asleep,he call me again today morning,but i was busy..and he msg me and say - mei,you went to the moon ar? stupid right..this kind of msg..okks lahs.. des few days our msg was like crazy people..when i cant reach him,i will msg him and say - kor,captured by aliens again and bring you back to mars.. haahs. thats why he msg me the moon things.than when im done with all my things, i call him and ask him where he go these two days.. and he say he went MALAYSIA!!!!! FUCK!!!!!! but since like when..? fri went drinking,sat i call him he didnt pick up already.. also dunno when he went in lahs.stupid! i was worried for him here and he say he went malaysia.. hmms.. nice arhs kor! great job! and also i told him that i seriously thought he admitted to hospital bcos mayb he fall down when he was drinking and got drunk on fri night lahs. haahs.. okks. lucky he is okks.. otherwise will be so bad lahs.. dunno when he is bringing me and karen to changi. sians.. okks. karen wasnt feeling good today.. but im at imm with my sister waiting for my parents to come for dinner..karen wan meet me..but i cant leave my sister there.karen need to get back home early..so e earliest i can meet her after e dinner is 9.but too rush..den nvm..next time..like fri.. darling life is previous.i know not easy to give up but try.is v hard to try too.but you have to do it.i have finally overcome them.i believe you will too.is just that it takes time.. e process is cfm very hurting and tough..but i will be with you,very fast.you can overcome already. you can only do it yourself.. we can only be there when you need us and stay with you until you are tired... your heart must JIA YOU! i can overcome and so do you. =) i believe you,you can do it.feel like hurting yourself so that you wont feel anithing but numb,before you start,take a deep breathe and think..e sun will still be sorching hot up high in the sky,e cows will still be eating grass happily,e fishes will still be swimming happily under e sea,e night will still come at e end of e day.you see. e world is not going to change bcos of you.think of the people that love you and care about you..think of how many pails of tears they are going to drop when anything happened to you.. you know that we love you. nothing ever changes.. this relationship is just a chapter of your life.so darling.learn to love yourself before you love others. treasure everyone who is beside you. love us.

went to meet karen dar for supper..okks.im on diet.i shldnt eat supper.but okks lahs.eat 3 4 strands of fries.2 3 spoon of mee.tts all.haahs.idiot.kor say want come with us than in the end he say dun wan.idiot! im pissed lors.but all with kor.but my mum n dad.they are too use that i have been locking myself at home after work or latest is 10 plus reach home.( AHEM! 10 plus is having dinner with them hors!) they are too use already.but they forget last time what im.i always go out with them for drinking session..until next day morning.they dun nag..now they nag..okks.i know they care but they have slip off their mind which is i dun stay home always.i will go out till dunno what time come back or next day.is just habit i think.after ending with him,depression came to me.i lock myself at home for abt 2 3 months.but now im okks.so they have to get used to me that im going back to who im.i believe they wil.sooner or later.they got to accept.and another matter is,kor say wan come,hapily put dwn phone with me.den i took my keys and when out.when i was waiting for cab,i call karen and she say kor is not coming,he lazy.WAH PIANG!!!! idiot! kor we soooo seldom meet.you still like that.okks i bug him on e phone..and he keep pls mei pls mei..don bully kor.idiot! dunno who bully who lahs huhs! anyway,im angry wit kor lahs.i just pissed with my parents den some more he like that..thats why. kor say next time bring me and karen out.aye!! dunno when lahs.he will be captured by aliens and bought him back to MARS again.i will miss you.you know!!! muhahahah!!!!!!!! MARS MARS MARS!!!!!! ALIEN ALIEN ALIEN!!!!! FASTER FASTER FASTER COME TAKE HIM LAHS!!! haahs! okks..chit chat with karen..food not bad.place is nice.. i think we wuld stay there even longer if tomorrow she no school and i no work. =( nvm. she might be comin to find me tml.ehh..i think she wil lahs.. haahs.okks.e end..eyes r heavy! zzZZZZZZZzzzzz night faires! and night ALIEN! work hard ALIEN! thanks man!! muhahah!!

update now..today after work went holland v with karen dar.we went haagen dazs to eat ice-cream and slack outside.so sians.call kor to come down.actually i call him is to ask him where is his pub..he say close dwn already..close dwn for so long lahs.haahs..sorrys lahs.i dunno ma.in e end,bug him to come down and accompany us..okks..talk rubbish together..sex lahs,movie lahs,whatever lahs.haahs.so long nv see him lahs.i miss him lors.our kor and mei relationship has been going on for like almost 10yrs!! omg!! haahs.. okks.he really care for me..nag nag nag nag nag.! tts is the best thing he can do to me..like my father like that.in fact,my father doesnt nag at me lahs okks kor! we left haagen dazs at ard 11 plus 12.forget le.den he drive us to geyland to see CHICKEN!!! haahs.during e journey,okks.kor drive so damn fast lahs.aye! den on music sooo loud.some more keep on changing e song..purposly one lors..anyway,today sad.CHICKEN off work today or just like karen said.THEY ARE WORKING LAHS! .haa!! dun have leis.only afew.. dun have all standin by e road side one.but saw alot alot of man.itchy man.wah lao!!!wah lao!!wah lao!!wah piang!!wah piang!!! so old still so horny..can be ah gong le lahs.kor say next time bring us go changi see more..you know man become woman..ya lahs them lahs.will be going like dunno when..anyway,today meet up with my kor,im really happy and i really miss him lors.soo long nv meet already.nv change lors.hair still long.always want to beat me.always want to compete with me for shouting!! KOR!!!! MEI!!! wah piang! sorrys karen dear.bear with us for one night already. haahs. more to come i guess.miss you dearie. and i starting to love holland v already. =) *yawn*cannot already!!! ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzz.

i know someone that i love and is just beside me always.at HOME. has been very xing ku lately.got stuck between me and her right. i wont say anything or comment about any.i just want you to be happy and not suffering. i love you.we are connected by blood. so ya be happy.she can still come.i wont be unhappy.dun need to get stuck here and there.we are connected by blood,so no matter what happened,we are still together with meimei also.i treasure you and mei.so do whatever you want but i just want you to remember what i say on that night. you might not agree but aniway is already past.but i strongly agree. whatever it is,competition is important,but studies too.concentrate on your Os first.plenty of chances waiting for you in e future.

ok.all overdue pics.. i haven been so lazy to come up here and blog lahs.have wait for one day that i really really have e mood den can.today i think i have e mood bcos tomorrow public holidays. OFF!!! shiok! tired. yesterday went bugis with mei.buy alot of things.i think spent ard 300 to 400 i guess.cannot every week go out like that.i will be damn poor than. haahs. bought father day gift for my dad.a blouse for my ah ma. tired and sians. ended e shopping day with dinner at sakae sushi.AGAIN.jap food.my family have been having jap food for one week! =0 and one handroll and one plate of grill fish make me sooo damn full lahs. oks lahs.diet ma.dun eat after 5.yesterday eat sushi at ard 9 plus.is like so dun feel like swallowing them.but have not taken in any food for e whole day.so ya lors.yesterday too busy shopping and walking.no pics taken.only two!!! =( sunday sunday sunday..time passes soo fast.going to be june soon. times fllyyyy!!!!!!

bad hangover! and i really salute myself.i can still come here and blog. oh my TIAN!! mambo night with ade darling.damn crowded.expected lahs.in e end,i left e place first and got together with vis.and she got her frens there too.i left for thai disco!. i never never never believe i wld agree to go with vis there lahs.but but but!!! is not what we expected.vis keep asking us to go.e usual ppl.but no one wants to go. of cos.who want lahs. sing thai song,thai ppl ard,thai thai thai thai.! but!!! i change this thinking of mine last night.is v v v nice. der are chinese ppl there too. n sing chinese n english song. r&b somemore. n!!! very pretty and hot for the ladies and very handsome and cute for the guys.! people there are damn friendly. i like there. =) me n vis left at 3 plus.yes.they close at 3 thats why.otherwise we will stay longer. 95% drunk! shit! im taking ard 10 minutes to blog this little post. i miss my bed.i want go back sleep.! but i need to go for work already!!! fuck it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mother's day tomorrow.we going out to eat dinner at ming xiang restaurant.my dad like it.haahs.so we going lors.actually i want to go somewhere else one..ming xiang can wait father's day den eat lahs.like i say,he anxious mahs.haahs. i guess tomorrow will be a fun and sweet day.which all of us have been looking forward. =)

if im lost for a day,pls dun look for me.

is everything to normal.? i dont think so. and i guess i have already give up. i have been reborn again my body but not my soul.never anymore.

im actually suppose to be out with my sister today.bcos my salary is not in yet,so is like so sians lahs.got money to spend but not alot lors.i also want to save money already.i got too much things that i want to buy and learn.sians sians sians.so i stay at home e whole day.anyway nowadys e weather is fucking hot can.oh my god lahs! sweating like hell!!! i hate this kind of feeling lahs.sticky all over e body.just now when my dad was having his dinner which was packed by my sister and my mother..bcos my dad is always so picky abt food.saying not much sauce lahs,too sweet lahs,too oily lahs.not sweet lahs,too dry lahs.wa lao! so hard lahs.and he keep on saying anything whenever we call him what he want for dinner.okks.since he always say anithing den wil be anything den..dunno since when his dinner is sort of decided by me.anithing ma.he say one.so i decide lahs.haahs.whenever he want to complain,his two beautiful daughters will say stop complaining.you say anithing one mahs.haahs.so sad poor him.nothing he can do lahs.haahs.and just now my sister n mother pack him food which was sort of left over food eaten by them.and they pack for him.haahs!!!!! so damn funny lahs.when he see them!! e fact is,is not left over lahs.is when e food is being served,is too much thats why they took out some n pack for him.so is not left over lors.he starts complain again.but sad!my sister say him until my dad got nothing to say! he is cute lahs.control by us!!! muhahaha!!! he is being force to eat them bcos my mother is inside e room,he cant complain to her,only us.but too bad,before he start,we shut him up already.poor thing dad! you know we love you lots!. =) finally my mum came out,he start again..haahs!!! sigh..! man!! nobody care lahs.hahah! he is just cute n funny n irrating lahs.! haahs! he almost choke on e veggie lahs.he keep on complaining saying VEGGIE TOO LONG!! HALF STUCK IN MY THROAT AND MY MOUTH LAHS!!!.okks. mei gave him water.anyway he just keep on complaining through out e dinner thats all. =) i took e chance to snap some pics . real fun!.